For a long while, I’ve debated on whether or not I should air this laundry for the cyber world to see. As it’s been cropping up in my dreams more and more, as I catch myself repeating the mantra that comes along with it (which is not a positive mantra – but more on that…
Category Archives: My Messiness – Unfiltered
Rescuing Hippo – Saving Myself
This is a weird time of year for me – a sad, emotionally restless time of year. April 6th was the nine year anniversary of my father’s death, and I’ve noticed that each year – around the end of March – I start feeling ‘heavy.’ My thoughts are darker, my moods are lower, and everything…
I Will Rise
We’re all afraid of something. Hell, most of us have multiple fears. Me? I’m afraid of fire, sharks, spiders, cockroaches…I hate almost all bugs. The exceptions being lightning bugs, dragonflies, ladybugs – you get the idea. I KNOW that spiders – and other creepy crawlers – play vital roles in the circle of life, they eat other pesky species,…
Emotional Eating, Body Issues, and Other Bullsh!t
I’d like to begin by saying that I love exercise. LOVE. Exercise. For the past thirteen years, I’ve been a loyal gym member in four different states, absolutely glorying in the satisfaction of waltzing out after a workout drenched in sweat. Truly, this is when I feel sexiest – when I’m in my wet, smelly…
In Reflection
I can’t deny that 2015 was a rough year. To be honest, it has brought me to my knees in more ways than one. I’m exhausted, mentally and physically – there have been many times this year when I’ve asked myself, “Seriously – if this is as good as it gets, what is the f**king…
First World Woes
In my first Sociology class in college, we learned about ‘Socioeconomic status’ (SES for short). By textbook definition, SES is “a social standing or class of an individual or group, often measured as a combination of education, income and occupation.” As my instructor described in layman’s terms, SES is basically the economic situation you were…
Playing it Safe
There was a boy in Greece. An intriguing boy, with kind eyes and a warm smile. Devastatingly sexy native accent aside, I found myself thoroughly attracted to him, and very curious about him. So, I did the same thing I always do when this occurs. I put up a huge wall. I avoided talking to…
Sometimes, This is Me
Sometimes the darkness is crippling. Sometimes, no matter how grateful I am for every beautiful and positive thing in my life, I’m consumed by the constant struggles I seem unable to escape. I’m tired of worrying. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of people telling me, “Stay positive, something good will happen.” I know these…
The Woman in the Mirror
A few nights ago, my new friend Sarah invited me to join her for drinks and dinner at a beautiful rooftop restaurant in downtown Portland. The view of the city was amazing, the wine was delicious, and the company was absolutely perfect. There’s something soothing about forming a friendship with someone whom you know is…
Baby, Just Hold Me
Have you ever had a dream about being held by someone? Just held, in their arms, for as long as you want – nothing more, nothing less. A dream so vivid, so colorful, so warm that it truly felt real. It’s as though you could smell their skin, hear them breathing, and actually feel their…
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