Embracing Your Dragons

I was first diagnosed with clinical depression when I was 18. My parents had separated the year prior, and shortly thereafter my father had been diagnosed with a terminal illness. All of this transpired before my senior year in high school. When my doctor wrote me that first prescription for Prozac, I remember her saying,…

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Missing Pieces

Last night, I had a shockingly vivid dream about my wedding. I’ve had many of these dreams over the years, some more vivid than others, the truly special scenarios staying in my memory for me to revisit when I’m in the mood to engage in conscious wish-fulfillment fantasies. This dream started off lovely… The details…

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Embrace Your Place

A kind, wise man once posted the following on Facebook – “Blessings are sometimes disguised in failures, or setbacks. However, God makes no mistakes. A good friend told me this week to ‘embrace your place’.” Even though this was months ago, I never forgot his words. I knew that eventually, when my creative energy started…

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“I’m Still Here”

One of my favorite father figures in cinematic history is the late Richard Farnsworth portraying Matthew Cuthbert in Anne of Green Gables. His gentle, quiet presence is reminiscent of my own father; and I love how he immediately falls in love with Anne as she chatters away incessantly, allowing him to simply be himself in silent appreciation. While Matthew is a…

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Just Breathe

For a while now, I’ve been having a recurring dream.  I’m underwater.  There are traces of light that allow me to see my hands grasping at the bubbles that are floating above me towards a surface I can’t see.  I know I’m drowning, and while I’m frightened – I’m also accepting.  The silence is comforting. …

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Chasing the ‘Lonelies’

I’ve never been prone to loneliness.  Partial credit is awarded to me being an introvert, while I’ve also enjoyed my own imagination, my own company, and my own ‘quiet’ since I was a child. I’ve never been one to get bored easily.  There’s always something to read, something to ponder, a great film to watch, some menial chore…

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Hiding from Joy

During an appearance on Oprah, Dr. Brene Brown, a renowned public speaker and research professor, speaks about ‘dress rehearsing tragedy.’ To be more specific, she explains that – “Dress rehearsing tragedy is imagining something bad is going to happen when in reality, nothing is wrong.” I’m accustomed to calling this coping mechanism, ‘waiting for the other shoe to…

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No More Silence

I’m struggling, friends.  My heart is heavy, my body is exhausted, and my mind is fighting to remain at a safe distance from the Dark Place.  I need to be reminded of the good in the world.  Tell me something beautiful, that will restore my faith in magic.  Help me remember my profound belief in…

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